By mid year 10 my friend group changed, I hung with a lot of black girls again not a bad thing I loved it to be honest we just a lot more in common. So still this character of mine was cornered about looks and clothes, I then broke out with acne. All along my forehead, I remember this horrible lump on my nose that took almost a year to go away. I started to judge myself and couldn’t stand looking in the mirror. Makeup wasn’t really a big thing back then so we had to deal with any type of skin issues out in the open. I just felt horrible and decided to cut myself a fringe to cover the breakouts which only made it 10x worse because of the bacteria from the hair products. Surprisingly a lot of people said they barely noticed mmhmmm but when it’s on you it’s a different story, you see every scar and every lump.
I didn’t see that person again but after experiencing sex for the first time It wasn’t something I felt had to happen again. I was the introduced to this guy by a friend who ended up being my