It’s the last day of 2018. Even these last few months have been awful I cant help but look back and and be proud of how far I’ve come. I have been through hell and back and I can truly say that this year proved how strong I really am.
We should all look back, no matter where you are and what state you’re in and just appreciate the journey because we made it. Not many people have made it to today and unfortunately not many will make it to tomorrow so let’s give thanks.
There are many times where I questioned everything, many times I was angry at the wrong people, many times I made the wrong decisions and many times I just wanted out. Here I am. Working on my dream, hungry as ever for progression, waiting to have another chance at love even though it caused so much pain in the past.
I won’t give up, I cant give up. It’s just not in me anymore. There’s so much I’ve learnt this year about myself and it annoys me because I should have done this sooner. I wasted so much of my time on things I had no control over. Things that wouldn’t even matter to me in the future. Things that only hurt me more the longer I held onto them.
So I encourage you all. While there’s still a few hours left in 2018. Ask yourself is it worth it? will it matter a few years from now? How much am I putting at risk if I let this continue? There’s a bit wide world full of people, yet there’s only one you.
We’ve got to start making the most of our lives while we still have it. The only thing that should scare us is death. Take more risks, forget what everyone else says if you want to do something, do it. Strop worrying about what you don’t have and be grateful for what you do have. There’s people out there that have everything, from the cars, the clothes, shoes and money but are empty inside. Take a look at some of these celebrities for example that seem to have everything but they take their lives because of loneliness and depression. I can’t express how important it is to take care of your mental state because mental health isn’t a joke. So many people are affected by it but no one really knows until its too late. It’s time to take care of ourselves more and those around us.
2019 is going to be great and I just want to wish you all a Happy New Year!